I find myself tired and cold this February in NYC. After returning from a life-changing experience in India in 90-degree weather, I am cold and feeling a little down. I look in the mirror and all I see all are my faults and my insecurities. I see the flaws in my skin, my body that needs some fixing and my sunken spirit. I think about the people who don’t love me for who I am and I wonder what is wrong with me. Why can't I acknowledge my beauty and give love to all that is in me? How did my inner peace I worked so hard to establish in India disappear when I came back home? Because I let it…
We seem to doubt our strength and see all of our faults instead of our amazing qualities. My self-doubt began not too long ago as I transitioned home and tried to pick back up the life I left for the cultivation of peace and love in my heart. I felt tired, sad and lonely. I saw only the bad things in my life and didn't cherish the good. I have so much to be thankful for and I truly am grateful for my life and all the people who love me. But instead of acknowledging the good every day, I was focusing on the bad when I looked in the mirror, like so many of us do too often.
Then I had to stop the mental bashing. I do not need to beat myself down for things that are not perfect. So, to motivate my mindful thinking, I decided to dedicate my yoga practice to loving myself for the next 31 days of March? Could this help me regain my love for myself and change my perspective? Could making it a priority to love myself every day change the way I think, thus changing the present and all the emotion I project into the universe?
It is worth a try.
Normally, during my yoga practice I may set an intention or dedication to family and friends that need my love. Right now I need to focus on myself so that I can continue helping others. For the next month, I reserve my dedications for me…loving me, spending time with me, and accepting ME exactly the way I am. It's hard to accept all the insecurities and love them so truly. I need this now more than ever as we enter spring and continue into 2016. New beginnings and a beautiful new me. (not really new, but awakened) I am a good person and I can't let these small insecurities reflect my outlook on life and change the way I go through each day. I like smiling and being happy because that’s who I truly am. Well. It’s time to regain my smile.
I need to be inspired…but not by anyone else. Inspired by me, all that I have accomplished and all that IS to come. So, I remember to bow to the light inside of me and to each and every one of you out there that may need some self-love as well. Maybe you choose to dedicate 31 days to loving you.